I made the first post on this blog at work during my lunch hour, and by the time I got home I was in a right state, having convinced myself that there was no point continuing because :
a) I cant write
b) No one will ever read it
c) Anyone who does read it will be bored stupid and think it’s rubbish
I managed to get up enough enthusiasm for dinner and afterwards sat at the computer to check my emails etc. I still couldn’t do it.
This is one of the most obvious ways that my condition affects me day to day. My self confidance is a real roller coaster. At lunchtime I was full of positivity, thinking of subjects for this shiny new blog and ways that I could possibly help others who feel the same as me. Within a few hours I was staring at the wall convinced that there was little purpose in me even thinking about writing anything ever again. It’s flippin’ annoying!!
That feeling lasted most of the evening. Once I was sat in front of the computer I pretty much didnt get up again. I watched some CSI: New York, despite there being a comfy sofa downstairs and a much bigger and better TV, simply because I couldn’t motivate myself to walk down the stairs.
Thankfully, I woke up this morning feeling much better, and I guess that’s possibly the lesson for today :
Sleep! There is a reason why we say “I’ll sleep on it”. Sleep has a wonderful recouperative quality. I find that when I am particularly down all I want to do is sleep. Now this isn’t because I am fully aware of it’s helpfulness – at the time I am simply craving oblivion, but some part of me does realise that the world could well look like a very different place in the morning, and it often does.
The body and the mind need sleep, if we go without it for any length of time it harms us in all sorts of horrible ways both mentally and ultimately physically as well. There can’t be many better feelings than those last few moments before nodding off in a comfortable bed, or favourite chair can there? Perfect peace and serenity, drifting off into darkness and quiet.
So, if anything came out of my failure to write last night, it is this post, and my advice for the day is :
Sleep! Try to do everything you can to make your sleep work for you. Be comfortable, try and get the right amount (which varies from person to person, so don’t worry about the 8 hours rule), and you will see the benefits very quickly.
Well, that’s it for now, another ramble over. See you soon!